Friday, April 23, 2010

The Trials of Letting Go

Holy lazy slacker man, Batman!  Its been a long time since my last update.  Life keeps getting in the way!  That damn life!  Here comes the excuses.  3 kids playing baseball, 3 different teams.  Coach on two of them.  I have baseball 6 days a week.  I have no time to update. My wife is high maintence, she's taking up all my free time (she's far from it).  I have no time to update.  I work full time (feel bad for all the unemployed, yet the economy is turning around?).   Work is getting in the way.  I have no time to update.  My daily email and internet porn is taking all my time.  I have no time to update.  I'm done with the excuses.

This baseball year, I'm not managing any teams this year.  I wanted to take a step back.  I became a rundown wreck by the end of the season.  This year, I'm just one of those lowly, get no respect, assistant coaches on my teams.  I was having a hard time dealing with that.  Not the big man (litterally) in charge.  It was rough on me the first few weeks dealing with it.  I had my set ways.  This is how you coach my kids. My ways are better yours.  This is how you run these drills.  My way is the best way.  These are some serious issues in my head.  But I've embraced it.  I give my feedback, my tips, my suggestions.  The shocking thing to me, my feedback has been well recieved.  Well to my knowledge its been well recieved.  This has, here comes the voice from the corn fields "ease his pain".  I'm not as distracted as before and I'm actually enjoying the little league season.  Its become fun and not work for me again.  Hooray for me!

This year, I've actually had the plessure of being one of those annoying parents in the stands.  You know those parents.  The ones that cheer everything the team does.  Nice hit!  Nice throw!  Nice catch! Way to trip over that chalk line!  Questioning the coaches every move.  Wondering if the umpire needs my glasses.  Wondering if that girl on the other team is REALLY 10.  I LOVED IT!  I can't wait to do it again!

Stepping back has been hard.  But I have embraced it.  I love it.  I want more.

Pledge to myself.  Make time, find time, to update more.

Stay positive, be positive